When Pain Becomes Hate

For all of us women, simple, everyday, named, anonymous... For us who dared to dream, to travel, even once, to sail far, to love madly and passionately, to live our repressed... to give ourselves to a man, to hurt and be hurt... For all of us who lived, even if we only tasted that sweet moment once... Just for a while... even if he betrayed us later... I was fed up, I was done, I was disgusted, I was bored... you emptied me, you didn't care , you made me sad. I called you, you didn't listen, I spoke to you, you didn't answer. I wanted so much a caress of yours, a warm hug, an insane love... You avoided me, I looked for you everywhere. But you nowhere, always on the outside... So many years thrown away and I here with thousands pushed away and countless whys... Until I finally woke up one morning... with my body thirsty and my senses dancing a crazy passionate dance... And then I decided to leave you, to leave you behind me, the things that hurt me around you... I'm not here anymore... I don't belong to you... you don't take me for granted anymore, I don't exist. I'm elsewhere and I don't care where my heart takes me... Now I rebel, I claim what you deprived me of... now I'm leaving and don't look for me... I'm leaving... Just like that, because I loved...